Heavy bass pounding. Electronic beats. Words laced together.
I get lost in a sea of music and frankly, I don’t want to be found.
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Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Act how you want to be treated.
Act like a hoe, get treated like a hoe. Act like a bitch, get treated like a bitch. Act like a nice person, get treated like a nice person. Act like a banana, get treated like a banana..
Just how it is.
-BUT THAT'S JUST NOT THE WAY IT IS. FOR THE WORLD IS IF FULL OF TRICKERY. THE WORLD IS A SCREWY PLACE. IT DOESN'T PLAY BY THE RULES.
Just how it is.
-BUT THAT'S JUST NOT THE WAY IT IS. FOR THE WORLD IS IF FULL OF TRICKERY. THE WORLD IS A SCREWY PLACE. IT DOESN'T PLAY BY THE RULES.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
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FRIEND: Did you you see her primary pic?
ME: Huh? Di ko nga(INTERRUPTED)
FRIEND: Wala ba sha ibang jacket/hoodie?
ME: Why?
FRIEND: Ni photoshop pa yung color! Ang funny. Ang jologs nya. Maybe she's broke, napupunta lahat sa boyfriend nya. Diba homeless yun, may sayad?
ME: I don't know man. I don't care.
ME: Huh? Di ko nga(INTERRUPTED)
FRIEND: Wala ba sha ibang jacket/hoodie?
ME: Why?
FRIEND: Ni photoshop pa yung color! Ang funny. Ang jologs nya. Maybe she's broke, napupunta lahat sa boyfriend nya. Diba homeless yun, may sayad?
ME: I don't know man. I don't care.
I always thought it was what the heart wanted over what your dick’s craving.
But okay. I thought you were better than that.
steer him by
“You know, I’m just passing through. Satisfied? You know, I really hope so, ‘cause God knows you need some satisfaction in your life, besides shagging Captain Cardboard. And- and, I never really liked you anyway, and- and, you have stupid hair.”
-Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, “No Place Like Home”
-Spike, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, “No Place Like Home”
The Disputed Truth
“The historic fact is that you get out of a deep recession or depression by working your way out. You don’t get out of it through austerity measures or attacking the unemployed. You didn’t get out of it by giving tax breaks to rich folks. You build or make things. This presents us with an impossible scenario. We no longer make things. The engine that would power our economy back to profitability and high employment is now driving the economies of China, India, and Singapore. What we are witnessing in America today are the results that were predicted but roundly denounced when the whole outsourcing process began. You don’t have to be a Harvard educated economist to figure out that if you ship your middle-class creation mechanism overseas that you will have fewer middle-class people. In fact it’s probably easier to understand if you’re not Harvard educated.”
Monday, October 18, 2010
Stupes.
You know what? People don’t choose to be gay, lesbian, bisexual, etc. People are born and they grow and mature. As they get older, they realize what type of people they’re attracted to. It may be a different gender, the same gender, the same race, a different race, and so on. For example, if you’re a guy and you start having feelings for other guys, then so be it. Embrace yourself and who you are, don’t let others tell you what’s right and what’s “wrong”. It doesn’t matter what religion you believe in either or if you don’t believe in one at all; your job as a human is to treat others the way you would like to be treated.
Textfight.
I got pikon. He's such a sutil. Fucking sutil! Why do I always fall for WHATEVilgja;gj;to.
Yeah, I'm just feelin' blahhh!
Yeah, I'm just feelin' blahhh!
I'm not in love.
I just wanna spend my special day with this guy named, DIPDHALIWAL.
Before I used to listen to hardcore rock music, triphop and other music that only few people could understand. Now I'm starting to really really like hiphop music. All because of this person. Well, I still love acid jazz, trip-hop, rock, and other psychedelic funk eargasmic music. It's just that hiphop just makes me feel cool & calm. You know, I feel so FLY. Like the other night when I was drunk, I caught myself rapping Twista's overnight celebrity. WTH right? Then next morning I played Tupac Shakur's songs. Then I played Drake, Wacka Flacka, Cali Swag District.
I remember when I was in highschool, the first hiphop rappers I listened to was DMX and Bone Thugs and Harmony. Go to school, hang out with the boys. (I'mma be rappin like a thug quack'n like doug.) LOL
Dip's a cool guy. (I think) What else can I say? Words jumble in my head when I think of him. I just can't help it. Starting to learn how to do freestyle rap and other hiphop stuff. Ha ha!
He's kind of my inspiration in writing songs. Gaaahhh! It's a bad thing because I don't know what I feel for him exactly.. But a good thing cos it helps me write songs just by thinking of him. ;P
Before I used to listen to hardcore rock music, triphop and other music that only few people could understand. Now I'm starting to really really like hiphop music. All because of this person. Well, I still love acid jazz, trip-hop, rock, and other psychedelic funk eargasmic music. It's just that hiphop just makes me feel cool & calm. You know, I feel so FLY. Like the other night when I was drunk, I caught myself rapping Twista's overnight celebrity. WTH right? Then next morning I played Tupac Shakur's songs. Then I played Drake, Wacka Flacka, Cali Swag District.
I remember when I was in highschool, the first hiphop rappers I listened to was DMX and Bone Thugs and Harmony. Go to school, hang out with the boys. (I'mma be rappin like a thug quack'n like doug.) LOL
Dip's a cool guy. (I think) What else can I say? Words jumble in my head when I think of him. I just can't help it. Starting to learn how to do freestyle rap and other hiphop stuff. Ha ha!
He's kind of my inspiration in writing songs. Gaaahhh! It's a bad thing because I don't know what I feel for him exactly.. But a good thing cos it helps me write songs just by thinking of him. ;P
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Won't drop it
Company, Companionship, Someone.
Sometimes, being alone isn’t all that great. Sometime, I would like to have a conversation with a down to earth person. I talk about anything, I listen very well. I would love to share interest, debate over the things we don’t agree on. I would like to learn about another person past and share mines. Just someone to talk to, we don’t have to even like each other romantically. Someone who I can laugh with, or even watch movies with over the phone. Or, someone I can listen to music with. I want that. Just someone. These lonely nights just don’t do it for me anymore.
Sometimes, being alone isn’t all that great. Sometime, I would like to have a conversation with a down to earth person. I talk about anything, I listen very well. I would love to share interest, debate over the things we don’t agree on. I would like to learn about another person past and share mines. Just someone to talk to, we don’t have to even like each other romantically. Someone who I can laugh with, or even watch movies with over the phone. Or, someone I can listen to music with. I want that. Just someone. These lonely nights just don’t do it for me anymore.
It starts off as fun and games,
then someone takes it a bit too far
and it becomes an argument
and that argument could lead to many things .
and it becomes an argument
and that argument could lead to many things .
The lesson.
It doesnt matter who they are, try and realize how much they mean to you, and how you would feel if they were no longer there. It may be a depressing or seemingly impossible thought when things seem fine, but life has many ups and downs. Learn to treasure someone in the present or else they just might end up being a glorious gem that shines only in memories.
Dislike reationships.
but then again, I really miss it all. It’s been awhile since I last dated someone and to be honest, I really, really miss it.
It’s the physical things that I miss. Being able to hold hands and hugging. Exchanging each other kisses and pecks before and after class. Sitting on the couch, watching movies and cuddling. The shear presence of them.
It’s the verbal communications that I miss. You know, I miss when I would have someone to talk to at night and waking up to their voice. Those cute little morning text messages or voice-mails. Not to mention, calling just to tell each other that you miss them.
It’s the mindful & thoughtful things that I miss. You know you’re intertwined with someone when you know what they like and they know what you like. I love being able to talk about everything with them and being able to be open about my own thoughts.
It’s the way you cared & supported me that I miss. Not the financial care and support, but the kind where someone encourages me to do something. I miss when I had someone who cared about what I did because they didn’t want it in the way of our relationship. Someone who stood up for me and didn’t let the relationship die.
It’s everything overall. Sure, that includes the lovey-dovey stuff, but also the fights and arguments because it symbolized how strong this relationship is going to get if we work this out. It’s the turning point that showed me, Are you really here for me? Are you really going to try to make this work? It’s because when I was in a relationship, I felt like I belonged.
But I learned that relationships cannot be found, but instead, they find you.
It’s the physical things that I miss. Being able to hold hands and hugging. Exchanging each other kisses and pecks before and after class. Sitting on the couch, watching movies and cuddling. The shear presence of them.
It’s the verbal communications that I miss. You know, I miss when I would have someone to talk to at night and waking up to their voice. Those cute little morning text messages or voice-mails. Not to mention, calling just to tell each other that you miss them.
It’s the mindful & thoughtful things that I miss. You know you’re intertwined with someone when you know what they like and they know what you like. I love being able to talk about everything with them and being able to be open about my own thoughts.
It’s the way you cared & supported me that I miss. Not the financial care and support, but the kind where someone encourages me to do something. I miss when I had someone who cared about what I did because they didn’t want it in the way of our relationship. Someone who stood up for me and didn’t let the relationship die.
It’s everything overall. Sure, that includes the lovey-dovey stuff, but also the fights and arguments because it symbolized how strong this relationship is going to get if we work this out. It’s the turning point that showed me, Are you really here for me? Are you really going to try to make this work? It’s because when I was in a relationship, I felt like I belonged.
But I learned that relationships cannot be found, but instead, they find you.
Glasses.
I’ve been wearing fake glasses for the past two years. When I first started wearing them, they were for style and to make me look cool. But now, I mainly wear them for my eye bags. I developed these bags mainly during my junior year and my sleeping schedule has been messed up ever since. So since then, I’ve worn glasses to hide my eye bags. I know it’s a bit silly, but that’s just me. I don’t want people to take notice of my bags and tell me “Carla Cola my dear, you should get more sleep.” Yeah, I already know that and I try. But sooner or later, I mess it up and have to start all over again. So that’s the main reason why I’ve worn glasses for the past two years.
But now I have my first glasses with grade. Yeah.
I have a good heart.
But I can be really evil. Like really.
You think I'm crazy? I'll show you crazy. Let me party with you! :D
You think I'm crazy? I'll show you crazy. Let me party with you! :D
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Musika,
Ang aking bagong pag-ibig..
Someday, I will forgive and forget all the pain that I have experienced in my life. I will be happy and nothing can stop me. Someday, I'll reach for the stars.
Someday, I will forgive and forget all the pain that I have experienced in my life. I will be happy and nothing can stop me. Someday, I'll reach for the stars.
Inspirashon. Wag sanang masamain.
"Iwasan mo ang inggit sa iba na ibig mong makamit. Dapat nga'y ika'y matuwa, sa napala ng iyong kapatid. Ibig ko na ipa-batid na lahat tayo ay kapit bisig."
-from the song Mga Kababayan Ko by Francis M.
Malalim at nakaka-hanga ang mga liriko'ng ito. Mabuhay lahat ng mga filipino artists. Sana'y umunlad pa ang industria ng musika nating mga pilipino.
-from the song Mga Kababayan Ko by Francis M.
Malalim at nakaka-hanga ang mga liriko'ng ito. Mabuhay lahat ng mga filipino artists. Sana'y umunlad pa ang industria ng musika nating mga pilipino.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Description of mood states.
Here are some first-person accounts of the various mood states associated with bipolar disorder:
Depression:
I doubt completely my ability to do anything well. It seems as though my mind has slowed down and burned out to the point of being virtually useless. I am haunted with the desperate hopelessness of it all. Others say, "It's only temporary, it will pass, you will get over it," but of course they haven't any idea of how I feel, although they are certain they do. If I can't feel, move, think, or care, then what on earth is the point?
Hypomania:
At first when I'm high, it's tremendous...ideas are fast...like shooting stars you follow until brighter ones appear...all shyness disappears, the right words and gestures are suddenly there...uninteresting people, things, become intensely interesting. Sensuality is pervasive, the desire to seduce and be seduced is irresistible. Your marrow is infused with unbelievable feelings of ease, power, well-being, omnipotence, euphoria...you can do anything...but, somewhere this changes.
Mania:
The fast ideas become too fast and there are far too many...overwhelming confusion replaces clarity...you stop keeping up with it--memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened...everything is now against the grain...you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped.
Recognition of the various mood states is essential so that the person who has manic-depressive illness can obtain effective treatment and avoid the harmful consequences of the disease, which include destruction of personal relationships, loss of employment, and suicide.
Depression:
I doubt completely my ability to do anything well. It seems as though my mind has slowed down and burned out to the point of being virtually useless. I am haunted with the desperate hopelessness of it all. Others say, "It's only temporary, it will pass, you will get over it," but of course they haven't any idea of how I feel, although they are certain they do. If I can't feel, move, think, or care, then what on earth is the point?
Hypomania:
At first when I'm high, it's tremendous...ideas are fast...like shooting stars you follow until brighter ones appear...all shyness disappears, the right words and gestures are suddenly there...uninteresting people, things, become intensely interesting. Sensuality is pervasive, the desire to seduce and be seduced is irresistible. Your marrow is infused with unbelievable feelings of ease, power, well-being, omnipotence, euphoria...you can do anything...but, somewhere this changes.
Mania:
The fast ideas become too fast and there are far too many...overwhelming confusion replaces clarity...you stop keeping up with it--memory goes. Infectious humor ceases to amuse. Your friends become frightened...everything is now against the grain...you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and trapped.
Recognition of the various mood states is essential so that the person who has manic-depressive illness can obtain effective treatment and avoid the harmful consequences of the disease, which include destruction of personal relationships, loss of employment, and suicide.
Side effects of cocaine.
agitation, excitability, irritability, nervousness, or restlessness
difficulty passing urine or urinary incontinence
dilated (enlarged) pupils
dizziness, lightheadedness, or fainting spells
fast or irregular heartbeat
headache
increased sweating
mood swings or other mental changes
nausea, vomiting
nervous tics or rapid speech
numbness or tingling in the hands, feet, or arms
stomach pain
tremor
troubled breathing (hyperventilation)
unusual muscle weakness
Cocaine Withdrawal Side Effects:
Chronic pain in the chest and coughing sometimes accompanied by severe chest pains are common reports of withdrawal patients.
Phlegm coughed out is black in color and does not have blood in it unless the patient has other respiratory problems. This coughing can be treated by over the counter cough syrups or large dose of water intake and other juices.
Violent cases of withdrawal associate muscle spasm. Minor spasms are minor indication of worsening problem in cocaine addicts since people who develop them tend to suffer more physically violent symptoms of drug withdrawal.
Panic attacks are not uncommon to recovering users and addicts.
difficulty passing urine or urinary incontinence
dilated (enlarged) pupils
dizziness, lightheadedness, or fainting spells
fast or irregular heartbeat
headache
increased sweating
mood swings or other mental changes
nausea, vomiting
nervous tics or rapid speech
numbness or tingling in the hands, feet, or arms
stomach pain
tremor
troubled breathing (hyperventilation)
unusual muscle weakness
Cocaine Withdrawal Side Effects:
Chronic pain in the chest and coughing sometimes accompanied by severe chest pains are common reports of withdrawal patients.
Phlegm coughed out is black in color and does not have blood in it unless the patient has other respiratory problems. This coughing can be treated by over the counter cough syrups or large dose of water intake and other juices.
Violent cases of withdrawal associate muscle spasm. Minor spasms are minor indication of worsening problem in cocaine addicts since people who develop them tend to suffer more physically violent symptoms of drug withdrawal.
Panic attacks are not uncommon to recovering users and addicts.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Peruvian food.
Lomo saltado.
a peruvian dish that consists of strips of beef sauteed with onion, tomatoes, and french fries that served with a side of seasoned rice. Delicious!
Mamihlapinatapais.
from the Yaghan language of Tierra Del Fuego, is considered the world's most succinct word- and the hardest to translate.
It means
"A look shared by two people, each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire but that neither one wants to start."
It means
"A look shared by two people, each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire but that neither one wants to start."
Miley Cyrus is a bitch.
momonster:
My sister said her friend went to a Miley Cyrus concert and asked Miley for an autograph, but Miley refused, but when a Caucasian girl came and asked for one Miley happily agreed.
Ignorant Bitch.
ever since those pictures came out of her making fun of asians. I knew she was racist. fuck that hoe.
lol
funny kids :D
My sister said her friend went to a Miley Cyrus concert and asked Miley for an autograph, but Miley refused, but when a Caucasian girl came and asked for one Miley happily agreed.
Ignorant Bitch.
ever since those pictures came out of her making fun of asians. I knew she was racist. fuck that hoe.
lol
funny kids :D
Letting go.
“To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret. Letting go isn’t winning, and it isn’t losing. It’s not about pride, and it’s not about how you appear, it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, it doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. It’s not giving up or giving in. Letting go isn’t about loss, and it isn’t defeat. To let go of something is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. It’s having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting, it’s learning, it’s experiencing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that once made you cry, laugh, love and grow. It’s about all that you had and all you still have. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. It’s growing up, realizing that a heart can sometimes change and it can also be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, clear a path and set yourself free.”
I like to play with fire.
Success doesn’t come down from the universe like a oversized flame torch and set us on fire for something. We must determine our own passion, our own meaning, and then get so involved with it mentally, emotionally and intellectually that we are on fire for it. We must set ourselves on fire!
“Catch on fire with enthusiasm and people will come for miles to watch you burn.”
“Catch on fire with enthusiasm and people will come for miles to watch you burn.”
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