Dislike reationships.

but then again, I really miss it all. It’s been awhile since I last dated someone and to be honest, I really, really miss it.

It’s the physical things that I miss. Being able to hold hands and hugging. Exchanging each other kisses and pecks before and after class. Sitting on the couch, watching movies and cuddling. The shear presence of them.

It’s the verbal communications that I miss. You know, I miss when I would have someone to talk to at night and waking up to their voice. Those cute little morning text messages or voice-mails. Not to mention, calling just to tell each other that you miss them.

It’s the mindful & thoughtful things that I miss. You know you’re intertwined with someone when you know what they like and they know what you like. I love being able to talk about everything with them and being able to be open about my own thoughts.

It’s the way you cared & supported me that I miss. Not the financial care and support, but the kind where someone encourages me to do something. I miss when I had someone who cared about what I did because they didn’t want it in the way of our relationship. Someone who stood up for me and didn’t let the relationship die.

It’s everything overall. Sure, that includes the lovey-dovey stuff, but also the fights and arguments because it symbolized how strong this relationship is going to get if we work this out. It’s the turning point that showed me, Are you really here for me? Are you really going to try to make this work? It’s because when I was in a relationship, I felt like I belonged.

But I learned that relationships cannot be found, but instead, they find you.